how could i have forgotten?
these words that take me there, there, and where? where was i when i wanted so much more, who was i when i soared on melted wings, as if faith alone could carry me forwards. as if this belief was sacred, to stay with me forever, stay with me forever, stay with me,
with me,
but this is not a world where things make sense. i am haunted by light in the window and turn to shun the sea, bury my toes deeper than sand but where i cant feel, cant feel,
breathless and cold
there must be something wrong with me.